night vision

I’ve just had a phone call from a dear friend telling me he is in the hospital and facing serious complications due to a still unidentified infection. I don’t know what to say, and feel a helplessness, that core deep wish to make it all better and knowing I can’t. I feebly offer my love instead and upon hanging up, turn my focus inward to search for and identify something, anything, that I can send him energetically through prayer. It feels like rooting around in the dark and I need my night vision now. The kind of vision that can come in meditation and dreams. And then, as if by cue, I see a swooping figure through my window in the darkening end of the day sky. It is a huge wingspan, one I’ve never seen this close to the house and the bird it belongs to is now sitting silently on a branch with nothing between me and it except the pane of glass. At first I think it is a hawk, but with a swift swivel of the head  I see it is a beautiful barred owl, its soft form so still as to be camouflaged in the tangle of branches it is silhouetted against. Not content with simply observing this vision from inside, I head out with my camera to meet this owl face to face….


and we stare at each other for what seems like forever before his head swivels back to the scene in front of him.


I have been given something by transmission and even if I can’t see or know what it is I can feel the truth of it and know I can share this ‘voice’ with my friend and offer it to him, silently, too.  I can now feel the space created in a density and tangle of feelings,  which allows for the much needed light to come in…

Several days later I wake from a dream of returning ‘home’ after having been away for awhile.  I am accompanied by a dog and a horse.  I get out of the car and the dog runs ahead to the front door and I take the lead of the beautiful white horse to walk up the path together.  But instead of moving forward, I lay down on the ground in the horse’s path.  The horse steps over me and stops, as if to create the protection of a womb over me.  And then bends its head and begins to shower me with kisses!  Smile.  My night vision is offering me an experience of surrender in the sweetest possible way.  I see the horse as the light that makes healing possible, and no matter how I might intend to intervene or intersect with its path, consciously or unconsciously, it will still simply be the healing light that it is and find its own sweet way home…

2 thoughts on “night vision

  1. Not my last blog post, but the one before it describes my encounter with an owl. I can’t believe you got a picture. Lovely dream. Hope your friend is doing ok. Offering your love isn’t feeble! As you know, it’s healing.


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